I'm sorry

I apologize to those few guys who have liked me and whom I haven't liked back, or rather those I haven't liked enough to be their girlfriend. They weren't many, I was never that sought after, just one or two. A couple who had the kindness, the chance, the will to pay some attention and the compliment of their goodwill towards me. I'm sorry I couldn't love you back. There was nothing wrong with you, you were nice guys, it just that I didn't feel love for you. And I was naive and silly enough to believe relationships can only work with genuine affection; that acepting someone just to get into the 'married group' or even the 'someone's girlfriend' group, having a husband to show off, to have kids, or simply out of fear of being alone are all silly reasons, wrong reasons to accept someone. I'm starting to doubt that now. I'm starting to thing I should have been less idealistic, I should have taken the afection that was offered, because even if I didn't return it, I guess it's better to be loved that to love without being wanted. I'm so sorry! I hope I haven't hurt you when I said no. I hope you have found someone that really loves you back. You were nice to me, you deserve to be happy!